Two Essays. One Post. New Series.

This post combines the first two essays from a new fiction series. Andra is reworking a discarded chapter from her existing WIP manuscript and sharing it in pieces here. Come back next Monday for another installment.

Jewel Betancourt never wanted to be a mother.

If her husband Richard had only listened to her, they never would’ve been saddled with a child in the first place. Let alone such a willful, embarrassing daughter.

But Richard was always I need a son. I need a boy. Give me a son.

Seven years of that whiney nonsense before her birth control pill failed, magic sperm-killers she swallowed in secret, and for what? Her accidental baby popped out a gory eleven-pound daughter, leaving Richard equal parts devastated and determined to try again. Men will have their copies, their replicas, their legacies.

Jewel slides a pair of tortoiseshell sunglasses up her straight nose and sighs. “Shows what men know,” she mutters and switches on her turn signal. Richard never suspected she asked the doctor to tie her tubes before he sewed her up.

She is proof of one thing: Women who don’t want to be mothers should not be forced.

Jewel steers in front of an oncoming truck. It passes her rear bumper by inches, giving her a rush of tingling nerves and indecent heat. She glances in the mirror and sees her daughter’s rattletrap Toyota sitting behind the white line, awaiting her next green light. Susan is such a mousy old pushover.

If she couldn’t recall every second of pregnant agony, she’d wonder whether Susan was her daughter.

Richard was never part of her plan, either. Jewel Albright had PLANS. ALL CAPS. And they did not include being a teenage bride, marrying some hick boy going no place.

Jewel bloomed from a round (read obese) girl of six to a slender vision by twenty. Creamy, firm skin. Silky light blonde curls framing her oval face. Her gray eyes were exquisite tractor beams. They mesmerized everyone they landed upon. She’d just been crowned Miss Longhorn Queen of Cinderella, Texas. Ironic, right? And she had her pick of any eligible man for more than a hundred miles.

And boy, did men line up to woo her.

Unlike her awkward seventeen-year-old daughter who couldn’t buy a boyfriend, Jewel juggled four oblivious suitors in tandem at Susan’s age. Quite a feat in a dusty, microscopic town where everyone knew everyone else’s business five nano-seconds after it happened. At twenty-three, she spent a whole week engaged to two men at the same time, but she broke it off with one after he gave her the pearl necklace she demanded for her birthday.

Jewel strung every man along, working as a file clerk for a drilling company and running to the post office for the letter that trumpeted, “You have officially been accepted to a Dallas secretary school!” She spent too many years crammed up America’s rear end. In her mind, she had too much potential.

Breaking men’s hearts was a way to pass time. Until she met Richard.

What might Jewel’s life have been if she hadn’t met Richard Betancourt? 

Richard blew into Jewel’s two-bit Texas town to train the local mortician – her father – on the latest embalming techniques. Jewel was still engaged to one mooney-eyed boy, but that didn’t stop her from noticing the fine cut of Richard’s suits or the way they clung to his fit, delicious frame. Modelesque and mysterious, he smoldered more than any man she’d ever seen.

And he was from another state – Virginia – not a neighboring backwater full of redneck bubbas. When his brown eyes burned into her and he shot her his lopsided smile, she actually had to go to the bathroom and wipe between her legs.

The nerve of that Richard. Weeks passed, and he never asked her out.

Never requested her phone number. Never brought flowers or left badly written love poems – An Ode to Your Cornflower Eyes, ick – outside her door. Richard Betancourt had the gall to ignore her.

Instead of appreciating her, he spent hours locked in the funeral home’s basement with her father, draining smelly fluids and sawing into bodies and other nasty things she didn’t want to think about. They always emerged from their morbid dungeon near suppertime. Jewel made sure to be home from work before they came up the stairs. She timed her walk through the foyer just as Richard was leaving, even if she had to go outside and return ten times.

No matter how much she hinted, he never suggested a date.

Jewel was undone by six weeks of his coolness. Ultimate destruction was her thoughtless abandonment of one simple dating rule: Never make the first move.

“Why don’t you ever invite me to supper, Richard Betancourt?” She kept her tone light and teasing, but her heart galloped beneath her Camelot silk shift while awaiting his reply.

“Your father told me you’re engaged to be married,” he responded.

“Oh. That. Well, not anymore. I ended it a while ago.”

Richard stood a little taller. His jaw ground against inscrutable emotions, like he dared to think her a liar. She held her breath until he said, “Hm. Seems your father would’ve mentioned it.”

Jewel resisted the impulse to giggle or toss her hair or touch his arm. She blushed at the thought of touching him, breathed a little faster. Richard was a man, at least a decade older. His woman would not be flighty or overly flirtatious. She kept her pretty face open, sincere, ravishing. “He doesn’t know. I didn’t want to break Daddy’s heart because he really likes the guy.”

Forty-five minutes later, she and Richard had sex for the first time.

She flushes now, how sinful and shameless they were, but it felt so good. She gripped the bathroom sink in the mens room at the Woolworth Diner. He ground into her from behind, purposely positioning them in front of the chipped mirror, two bodies a merging pornography.

And that was only the appetizer. They fled the diner without paying, their clothes still partially undone. In the privacy of his hotel room, he served her at least twelve courses, a dizzying procession of heat and acrobatics and unbridled pleasure. Together, they were molten lava, a nuclear explosion of passion the likes of which Jewel had never experienced in her podunk life.

The next day, Richard left town without saying goodbye.

TO BE CONTINUED…….

To see what else Andra has been writing in series fiction, visit The Aftermath of Death, She Was Venus in Fur, Grief Out of Balance, For the Love of a Gun, Death by Toilet, Biscuits, Gardenias and a Funeral and Everything Dies. She’s also on Medium with a new story HERE.