I think I told you I’m in the North Carolina mountains. For three weeks, I’m holing up in a house on Mississippi Road. Writing a book set mostly in Mississippi. And eating food that’s reminiscent of my Mississippi walk, because let’s face it: I. Don’t. Cook.

Today, I revised a section of the story.

And I cried.

And I sobbed.

And I heaved.

With all the depressing happenings in the news, I wonder how often we consider the magic of our lives.

How my parents had a fight over his sick mother.

How my mother huffed home to her mother, while my father drove across a state to the hospital to be with his mother.

How, somehow, my father ended up leaving his mother’s bedside to drive all night to be with his wife in Kentucky.

How they had makeup sex in a downstairs bedroom with the door open, across the hall from my grandmother.

How I was conceived near the time Dad’s mother died.

When I was a teenager, Dad used to tell me how he regretted not telling his parents he loved them often enough. I don’t know if Dad got to tell his mother he loved her one last time. But if he chose his mother instead of his wife, would I even exist today?

Life is a miracle. I complain about it. I wring my hands over it. I complicate it and worry about it and generally screw it up.

And none of that negates the intricate series of choices that led to my being here.

I’m ashamed of myself.

I should be celebrating the wonder of every breath.

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TODAY’S MERIWETHER LEWIS BIRTHDAY MONTH TRIVIA QUESTION:

 

Answer to yesterday’s Meriwether Lewis Birthday Month Trivia Question: FROM WHAT CITY DID LEWIS AND CLARK DEPART FOR THEIR WESTERN EXPEDITION?

ANSWER: St. Charles, Missouri.

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To Live Forever: An Afterlife Journey of Meriwether Lewis is just $2.99 on Kindle during August in celebration of Meriwether Lewis’ Birthday Month.

Click here to read an excerpt.

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To check out the entire Meriwether Lewis Birthday Month Series, follow the links below:

Lewis and Clark: Screwing Their Way Across a Continent
Lewis and Clark and Sex Bombs
Who Was Meriwether Lewis Godfather?
If Meriwether Lewis Had Lived to be 80
Lewis and Clark and Old Blue Eyes
The Lion Will Lie Down With the Lamb
My Natchez Trace Walk Featured in We Proceeded On
Dead People Follow Me And They Talk To Me
Is Suicide the Final Arbiter of a Life. For Robin Williams. And Meriwether Lewis.
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